what to say in this post. Things with the boy are moving along nicely. If you've read his post you know that I collared him with a training collar the other day. That was nice...

We've had a run-in with someone I know who was telling the boy that what we were doing wasn't "really" BDSM. Then, as I understand it, he went on to tell the boy that if he wanted to explore the scene that I was the wrong guy for him to be doing it with.

Last weekend I attempted a play scene with the boy. The operative word here is "attempted." Yeah... it's safe to say that it just didn't have the impact I would have liked it to.* I felt pretty weak and deflated as a Sir and even at one point found myself wishing I could just be in service again. The experience of the weekend really showed me that I, despite my experiences as sub, have a lot to learn about topping. *It wasn't that I went too far.. It's that I didn't go far enough and didn't go about it the right way.

Monday rolled around... he and I went out for a beer after work. At first I was resistant to the idea.. then I realized that I owed it to both of us to talk about what I was feeling and what our weekend was for each of us. Turns out going out for a beer with him was the best thing I could have done for both of us. We were able to work out what did and didn't work as well as discuss what we can do differently next time.

On Tuesday I came into work with a renewed fire for pursuing this BDSM thing. I yanked every resource I have in this city in the BDSM scene and was eventually directed to the citadel. They offer a bunch of classes on the topic, they're all pretty inexpensive and open to newcomers. They seem to offer everything from paddling to play piercing 101 (a strong fetish for both of us). There's even a "Whip Works" workshop run by a guy that Dick has known for the past few years. That's exciting for me 'cause I really really want to learn the single tail and eventually want the boy to know how to use it too. Anyhow, I digress.... lol We're taking the classes. Tonight is the paddling class.

In the end, I've come to realize that the insecurities planted by the rude guy are unfounded. I'm well aware of the fact that I'm not an experienced Dom guy but that doesn't dictate whether or not the boy and I are or are not practicing "real" BDSM. It's up to me and Jongen to decide that.

I've collared the boy and I'm proud of it. He wears it so well, and it only compliments the beauty he shows the world every day. I'm proud to be his Sir.